There’s a chance you might have been asking yourself this question :
Where have you been?
Since Mr Owl, and the little panorama thing, you probably haven’t seen anything from me. That doesn’t mean I have been spending my days lying in bed for the past few months. That said, I have no clear excuse as to why I disappeared. Or more precisely, I have one that is incomplete. I suspect my brain is neurodivergent, even more precisely, I suspect I may have ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder). If you know me personally, you probably think that I have nothing to do with the loud kid you know was diagnosed with hyperactivity in 6th grade. If you’re that kid, you may be thinking I have nothing to do with you. And that’s the thing with ADHD, it doesn’t manifest itself in one way. You don’t need to be out there for your attention to switch every couple of seconds. You don’t need to be loud to have trouble organising yourself. And these are problems I only now realise I’ve been struggling with my whole life. No wonder I dropped out of uni. No wonder I changed country twice. No wonder video games and the internet are such a comfort for me : they allow for my brain to receive the amount of stimulation it feels like it needs. I am currently trying to reach out for professional help. The problem is that I’m a French person living in Germany, and, as explained in a previous comic, combining my German skills and the German health system isn’t easy.
So, to sum up, what’s been happening recently, is me struggling to organise myself, and feeling swamped under an objectively relatively low amount of paperwork, and some other errands to run, as well as some personal adventures… That and the various projects I chose to take on, while knowing that I’d be studying full time, and have a student job next month. Also I sliced my left thumb open last week and got two stitches at the hospital, but all in all, my recovery time helped me realise I had been absent of social media for very long.
So this isn’t an apology. I’m tired of apologising for who I am. It’s already exhausting to try and keep it all together. I don’t think any of you were disappointed in the fact that I wasn’t there for a while, but I thought it was only fair that you knew what was going on. I don’t lack ideas. I don’t lack the means to make them. I’m not stupid, neither am I lazy. I can speak 3 languages more or less fluently and I go through the effort of translating every article on this website into 2 of them. I love doing what I do on my page and on my website, it’s not the issue. I mostly lack the ability to make everything come together on time. That said, there are actually some things coming up, I’m working on 2 at the moment. One is big (been working on it for months), the other is small (a single illustration). I don’t want to make any timely promises, because of all the above.
I hope all of this is understandable. Thank you so much for reading, and sticking around in spite of how inconsistent my creative outlet is… it means a lot.
I wish you all a good day!
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